11 Heidi Gains in One Way and Loses in Another海蒂的得与失-双语名著无障碍阅读丛书——《小海蒂Heidi》

XI.Heidi Gains in One Way and Loses in Another and when she read the tales aloud the scenes seemed to grow more beautiful and distinct,and then grandmother would explain and tell her more about them still. Still the picture she liked best was the one of the shepherd leaning on his staff with his flock around him in the midst of the green pasture,for he was now at home and happy,following his father's sheep and goats.Then came the picture where he was seen far away from his father's house,obliged to look after the swine,and he had grown pale and thin from the husks which were all he had to eat.Even the sun seemed here to be less bright and everything looked grey and misty.But there was the third picture still to this tale:here was the old father with outstretched arms running to meet and embrace his returning and repentant son,who was advancing timidly,worn out and emaciated and clad in a ragged coat.That was Heidi's favourite tale,which she read over and over again, aloud and to herself,and she was never tired of hearing the grandmother explain it to her and Clara.But there were other tales in the book besides,and what with reading and looking at the pictures the days passed quickly away,and the time drew near for the grandmother to return home. XI.Heidi Gains in One Way and Loses in Another Every afternoon during her visit the grandmother went and sat down for a few minutes beside Clara after dinner,when the latter was resting,and Fraulein Rottenmeier,probably for the same reason,had disappeared inside her room,but five minutes sufficed her,and then she was up again,and Heidi was sent for to her room,and there she would talk to the child and employ and amuse her in all sorts of ways.The grandmother had a lot of pretty dolls,and she showed Heidi how to make dresses and pinafores for them,so that Heidi learnt how to sew and to make all sorts of beautiful clothes for the little people out of a wonderful collection of pieces that grandmother had by her of every describable and lovely colour.And then grandmother liked to hear her read aloud,and the oftener Heidi read her tales the fonder she grew of them.She entered into the lives of all the people she read about so that they became like dear friends to her,and it ·178· 11.海蒂的得与失 读故事的过程中，那些情景会变得越来越漂亮、逼真， 老太太还会给她进一步地讲解。 她最喜欢的还是那一幅牧羊人拄着棍子，周围是羊 群，在绿色牧场上吃草的图画，因为这时牧羊人是在自 己家里，高兴地放牧着父亲的羊群。下一幅图画说的是 他离开了父亲和家，不得不在很远的地方给人看猪，整 ①swine[swain]n.猪 ②husk[hAsk]n.(某些果 天吃的都是糟糠，脸色变难看了，人变瘦了，这时连太 实或种子的)干燥外皮， 阳都不像以前那么明亮了，一切都是灰蒙蒙的。第三幅 外壳 图画还是讲的这个故事：年老的父亲伸出双臂跑过来迎 ③misty[misti]a.雾蒙蒙 的 接并拥抱回家的儿子，儿子忏悔着，胆怯地往前挪动着 ④timidly['timidli]ad.胆怯 型 脚步，衣衫褴楼，疲惫不堪。海蒂最爱读这个故事，一 ⑤wom out精疲力尽的 遍一遍地不厌其烦，大声地读，默默地读，她还总愿意 6 emaciated [i'meisieitid] 听老太太给她和克莱拉讲解。书里当然还有别的故事， a.憔悴的 就这样读着故事、看着图画，日子一天天地飞逝，很快 老太太就该回家了。 11.海蒂的得与失 老太太在的时候，每天吃完午饭都要去克莱拉身边 坐几分钟。这种时候克莱拉正在休息，而罗顿迈尔小姐 待在自己的房间里，大概也是在休息。但是老太太有五 suffice「s3'fais]k使满足 分钟就够了，然后她就站起来，叫海蒂去她的房间。在 那儿，她跟海蒂说话，用各种各样的办法逗孩子高兴， 不让她闲着。老太太有许多漂亮的布娃娃，她教海蒂如 ⑧pinafore['pinofo]:n,围 何给布娃娃做衣服和围裙，于是海蒂学会了缝纫，学会 裙，围嘴 了给这些小人儿做各种各样的漂亮衣服，料子是老太太 收集的碎布头，五颜六色，可好看啦。老太太还喜欢听 她读书，而海蒂越读这些故事就越喜欢，她走进了书中 人物的生活，这些人成了她亲密的朋友，跟他们在一 起，海蒂越来越高兴。然而海蒂看上去却不是真的开心， ·179· XI.Heidi Gains in One Way and Loses in Another delighted her more and more to be with them.But still Heidi never looked really happy,and her bright eyes were no longer to be seen.It was the last week of the grandmother's visit.She called Heidi into her room as usual one day after dinner, and the child came with her book under her arm.The grandmother called her to come close,and then laying the book aside,said,"Now,child,tell me why you are not happy?Have you still the same trouble at heart?" Heidi nodded in reply. "Have you told God about it?" "Yes." "And do you pray every day that He will make things right and that you may be happy again?" “No,I have left off praying..” "Do not tell me that,Heidi!Why have you left off praying?" "It is of no use,God does not listen,"Heidi went on in an agitated voice,"and I can understand that when there are so many,many people in Frankfurt praying to Him every evening that He cannot attend to them all,and He certainly has not heard what I said to Him." "And why are you so sure of that,Heidi?" "Because I have prayed for the same thing every day for weeks,and yet God has not done what I asked." "You are wrong,Heidi;you must not think of Him like that.God is a good Father to us all,and knows better than we do what is good for us.If we ask Him for something that is not good for us,He does not give it,but something better still,if only we will continue to pray earnestly and do not run away and lose our trust in Him.God did not think what you have been praying for was good for you just now,but be sure He heard you,for He can hear and see every one at the same time,because He is a God and not a human being like you and me.And because He thought it was better for you not to have at once what you wanted,He said to Himself:yes,Heidi shall have what she asks for,but not until the right time comes,so that she may be quite happy.If I do what she wants now,and then one day she sees that it would have been better for her not to have had her own way, she will cry and say,'If only God had not given me what I asked for!It is not so good as I expected!And while God is watching over you,and looking to see if you ·180· 11.海蒂的得与失 她那明亮的眼睛已不再明亮。那是老太太在的最后一个 星期，一天吃完午饭，老太太又像往常一样把海蒂叫到 她的房间。海蒂胳膊下夹着书，走了进来，老太太让她 走近点儿，把书放下，说：“孩子，告诉我你为什么不 高兴？还为同样的事烦恼吗？” 海蒂点点头，算是回答。 “你告诉上帝了吗？” “告诉了。” “你是不是每天都在祈祷，求上帝解除危难，让你 重新高兴起来呢？” “不是，我己经不做祈祷了。” “不许那么说，海蒂！你为什么不做祈祷了？” “没有用，上帝不会听的。”海蒂有些生气地说，“我 知道，在法兰克福，每天晚上都有那么多人在向上帝祈 祷，他根本听不过来，他肯定没听见我的话。” ①attend to顾及 “海蒂，你为什么这么肯定呢？” “因为几个星期来，我每天都在为同一件事而祈 祷，但上帝什么忙都没帮。” “你错了，海蒂：一定不能对上帝有那种看法，上 帝是我们所有人的慈父，他比我们自己更了解什么对我 们有好处。如果我们祈求的不是好事，他就不会答应， 而是把更好的东西送给我们，只是我们必须继续虔诚地 祈祷，不能半途而废，对他失去信任。目前看来，上帝 认为你祈求的事对你是没有好处的：但你一定要相信他 听到了你的话：他能同时听到所有人的话，还能同时看 到所有的人，因为他是上帝，不是像你我这样的凡人 他认为让你马上得到想得到的东西对你是不利的，就对 自己说：对，海蒂应该得到她祈求的东西，但现在还不 是时候，等时候到了再给她，她会非常高兴的。如果我 ②have one's own way随 现在就把这给她，日后她明白过来，就会大哭大叫：‘上 心所欲，为所欲为 帝要是没给我该多好啊！这可不像我想象得那么好！” 同时，上帝也在观察你、考验你，看你是否信任他，每 ·181· XI.Heidi Gains in One Way and Loses in Another will trust Him and go on praying to Him every day,and turn to Him for everything you want,you run away and leave off saying your prayers,and forget all about Him.And when God no longer hears the voice of one He knew among those who pray to Him,He lets that person go his own way,that he may learn how foolish he is.And then this one gets into trouble,and cries,'Save me,God,for there is none other to help me,'and God says,'Why did you go from Me,I could not help you when you ran away.'And you would not like to grieve God,would you,Heidi, when He only wants to be kind to you?So will you not go and ask Him to forgive you,and continue to pray and to trust Him,for you may be sure that He will make everything right and happy for you,and then you will be glad and lighthearted again.” Heidi had perfect confidence in the grandmother,and every word she said sank into her heart. "I will go at once and ask God to forgive me,and I will never forget Him again,"she replied repentantly. “That is right,.dear child,”and anxious to cheer her.,added,“Don'tbe unhappy,for He will do everything you wish in good time." And Heidi ran away and prayed that she might always remember God,and that He would go on thinking about her. The day came for grandmother's departure-a sad one for Clara and Heidi. But the grandmother was determined to make it as much like a holiday as possible and not to let them mope,and she kept them so lively and amused that they had no time to think about their sorrow at her going until she really drove away.Then the house seemed so silent and empty that Heidi and Clara did not know what to do with themselves,and sat during the remainder of the day like two lost children. The next day,when the hour came for Clara and Heidi to be together,the latter walked in with her book and proposed that she should go on reading aloud every afternoon to Clara,if the latter liked it.Clara agreed,and thought anyhow it would be nice for that day,so Heidi began with her usual enthusiasm.But the reading did not last long,for Heidi had hardly begun a tale about a dying grandmother before she cried out,"Oh!Then grandmother is dead!"and burst into tears;for everything she read was so real to her that she quite thought it was the grandmother at home who had died,and she kept on exclaiming as her sobs ·182· 11.海蒂的得与失 天坚持祈祷，把一切都告诉他，而你却跑开了，不再祈 祷，把上帝完全忘了。当上帝再也听不到那个祈祷者的 声音后，就不管他了，这样这个人才会认识到自己多么 愚蠢。他会陷入困境，并大叫：‘救救我吧，上帝！别 人谁都帮不了我。’而上帝会说：·你为什么从我这里跑 开呢？你离开了我，那我就帮不上忙了。’你肯定不愿 意在上帝想对你好的时候让他痛苦的，海蒂，是不是？ 那你就该去请求他的宽恕，接着祈祷，信赖他，你应该 相信他会把一切都为你安排好，让你幸福，那样你就可 以又高兴、轻松起来了。” 海蒂非常信任老太太，她的忠告她都铭记在心。 “我马上就去请求上帝的宽恕，再也不会忘掉他 了。”她悔恨地说。 “这就对了，亲爱的孩子。”老太太说，她很想使 海蒂高兴起来，就又说，“别伤心，上帝会在合适的时 候为你安排好一切的。” 于是，海蒂又跑回去祈祷，说要把上帝永远记在心 里，并求他继续关照自己。 老太太终于要走了一对克莱拉和海蒂来说，那是 个令人悲伤的日子，但老太太决心使那天像个节日，而 ①mope[mupv忧郁 不让她们忧郁，就想办法逗她们高兴，这样她们就没有 时间去想伤心的事，直到她真的乘车离开。老太太走了 以后，房子显得静极了，空荡荡的，海蒂和克莱拉不知 做些什么才好，就那么一直坐到天黑，像两个弃儿。 第二天，又是两个人在一起的时间了，海蒂拿着书 走进来，建议说如果克莱拉喜欢的话，她可以每天下午 ②anyhow[enihau]ad.无 论如何 读书给她听。克莱拉同意了，觉得那会使时间过得很有 ③enthusiasm 意思，于是海蒂就热情依旧地开始读书了。但是没读多 [in'0 ju:ziaezom]n.热情 大会儿就不行了，因为海蒂刚读到一个关于生命垂危的 老奶奶的故事，就叫起来：“啊！那么说婆婆己经死了！” 接着她放声大哭。故事对她来说就像真的一样，她真的 以为家中的婆婆死去了，于是她哭得更厉害了，还不断 ·183· XI.Heidi Gains in One Way and Loses in Another increased,"She is dead,and I shall never see her again,and she never had one of the white rolls!" Clara did all she could to explain to Heidi that the story was about quite a different grandmother:but even when at last she had been able to convince Heidi of this,the latter continued to weep inconsolably,for now she had awakened to the thought that perhaps the grandmother,and even the grandfather also,might die while she was so far away,and that if she did not go home for a long time she would find everything there all silent and dead,and there she would be all alone, and would never be able to see the dear ones she loved any more. Fraulein Rottenmeier had meanwhile come into the room,and Clara explained to her what had happened.As Heidi continued her weeping,the lady,who was evidently getting impatient with her,went up to Heidi and said with decision, "Now,Adelaide,that is enough of all this causeless lamentation.I tell you once for all,if there are any more scenes like this while you are reading,I shall take the book away from you and shall not let you have it again." Her words had immediate effect on Heidi,who turned pale with fear.The book was her one great treasure.She quickly dried her tears and swallowed her sobs as best she could,so that no further sound of them should be heard.The threat did its work,for Heidi never cried aloud again whatever she might be reading,but she had often to struggle hard to keep back her tears,so that Clara would look at her and say, "What faces you are making,Heidi,I never saw anything like it!"But the faces made no noise and did not offend Fraulein Rottenmeier,and Heidi,having overcome her fit of despairing misery,would go quietly on for a while,and no one perceived her sorrow.But she lost all her appetite,and looked so pale and thin that Sebastian was quite unhappy when he looked at her,and could not bear to see her refusing all the nice dishes he handed her.He would whisper to her sometimes,in quite a kind,fatherly manner,"Take a little;you don't know how nice it is!There, a good spoonful,now another."But it was of no use,Heidi hardly ate anything at all,and as soon as she laid her head down at night the picture of home would rise before her eyes,and she would weep,burying her face in the pillow that her crying might not be heard. ·184· 11.海蒂的得与失 喊叫着：“她死了，我再也看不见了，可是她还没有吃 过一块白面包！” 克莱拉想尽一切办法安慰她，解释说那故事中的是 一个不同的老奶奶。尽管她终于使海蒂相信了这一点， D inconsolably 但海蒂还是不停地哭泣，因为她意识到婆婆，甚至还有 [inkon'soulabli]ad.无法 安慰地 爷爷，都可能死去，而她却在离家很远的法兰克福。要 是她很长时间不回去，她会发现那里一片死寂，只剩下 自己孤身一人，再也见不到她热爱的那些亲人了。 这时，罗顿迈尔小姐走了进来，克莱拉跟她解释了 发生的事情。海蒂还在不停地哭泣，女管家显然已经 失去了耐心，她走到海蒂面前，严厉地说：“阿得蕾德， 你这种无缘无故的悲伤已经够了，我最后一次警告你， 以后读书的时候再发生这种事，我就把书拿走，再也不 让你见到了。” 她的话很见效，海蒂吓得脸色发白，因为这本书是 她最宝贵的财富之一。她马上擦干了眼泪，竭力把抽泣 吞咽下去，不再发出声音。这番威吓确实起了作用，以 后海蒂在读书的时候，不管读什么故事，都再也没有哭 过，但她却常常极力克制自己，不让眼泪流下来。这种 时候克莱拉会看着她说： “海蒂，你怎么那么愁眉苦脸的啊？我从来都没见 过这副样子！”但脸色不会发出声音，不会惹恼罗顿迈 尔小姐。海蒂压下极度的悲痛之后，就会平静一会儿， 别人察觉不出她的痛苦。但她一点儿胃口都没有了，看 上去非常苍白、削瘦，塞巴斯蒂安看着她，心里很难过， 自己为她端上桌的美味佳肴她动都不动，这真让他受不 了，所以有时就以慈父般的柔声细语劝她：“吃点儿吧， 味道特别好！来，吃一勺，再来一勺。”然而这没什么 用，海蒂还是吃不下东西。晚上，她头一挨枕头，眼前 就出现家中的情景，接着她就把头埋在枕头里无声地哭 泣，不让别人听见。 很多个星期过去了，海蒂弄不清是到了冬天还是夏 ·185· XII.A Ghost in the House And so many weeks passed away.Heidi did not know if it was winter or summer,for the walls and windows she looked out upon showed no change,and she never went beyond the house except on rare occasions when Clara was well enough to drive out,and then they only went a very little way,as Clara could not bear the movement for long.So that on these occasions they generally only saw more fine streets and large houses and crowds of people;they seldom got anywhere beyond them,and grass and flowers,fir trees and mountains,were still far away.Heidi's longing for the old familiar and beautiful things grew daily stronger,so that now only to read a word that recalled them to her remembrance brought her to the verge of tears,which with difficulty she suppressed.So the autumn and winter passed,and again the sun came shining down on the white walls of the opposite houses,and Heidi would think to herself that now the time had come for Peter to go out again with the goats,to where the golden flowers of the cistus were glowing in the sunlight,and all the rocks around turned to fire at sunset.Heidi would go and sit in a corner of her lonely room and put her hands up to her eyes that she might not see the sun shining on the opposite wall;and then she would remain without moving,battling silently with her terrible home-sickness until Clara sent for her again. XII.A Ghost in the House For some days past Fraulein Rottenmeier had gone about rather silently and as if lost in thought.As twilight fell,and she passed from room to room,or along the long corridors,she was seen to look cautiously behind her,and into the dark corners,as if she thought some one was coming up silently behind her and might unexpectedly give her dress a pull.Nor would she now go alone into some parts of the house.If she visited the upper floor where the grand guest-chambers were,or had to go down into the large mysterious council-chamber,where every footstep echoed,and the old senators with their big white collars looked down so solemnly and immovably from their frames,she regularly called Tinette to accompany her,in case,as she said,there might be something to carry up or down. ·186·